Because of them!

   Mother's Day coming up and I battled for so long with being a mom! I thought for sure I would turn out like my dad and mom..... I knew I wanted kid's and a husband but I didn't want to right away... I wanted to wait till I was older and wiser.... I knew deep inside I wanted the American family dream just didn't know when or how!

  I was in a bad place in life a angry soul walking around waiting for someone to hurt someone to blame for all my pain in life...Smiles didn't come to often... Dream's were my only happiness for a while I had come to a place of unhappiness a feeling on loneliness...I had no one to love or to love me.....

I moved out into a hotel when I was 16 year's old I dropped out of school and worked to pay my own bills...It was the happiest I was in awhile free from hurting, no one to hit me no more black eye's no more yelling and telling me how bad Iam just me living for me!

 I was going no where doing nothing in life! Why would there be anyone to love some one like me?
I was wrong! Larry and I meet and he showed me a life I've never known a love so strong something no one has ever expressed to me before.....

 November 6 2006 I moved in with Larry and his two kid's Daniel and Gladys.... At 19 I became a mother of two and a (unmarried) house wife I guess you could say.....It was so hard to trust them and so easy to love them with all my heart!

 I wondered for so long what being a mother would be like and I loved every second of it! Their mom was and still is NOT around and they call me mom till this day! I married this wonderful man and gain two children soon after had one of our own Josie.... They changed me (saved me)!! Loved me when no one else did they stood by me good and bad moment's! They are my best friend's I'm still learning and growing I'm so proud to say I'm growing with them!

I wrote something I want to share!:)

A mother's love could never be questioned! Gentle hand's and tender kisses... Flower's bloom then shortly die off...Mother's love blossoms forever more... never to die! I look at you and my heart smiles, your my every wish my every dream...

To see you cry makes my heart scream.. I will never be one to put you down or judge you, your so perfect to me! Beautiful daughter's and handsome son my love burns like a bright and gentle fire never to be put out! My wishes are to watch you grow to love you more and more...help you shine in every way hard day's and bad dream's are sure to come just know mommy will always be on your team...

Pick up your every fall your my flower's I want to help you grow! My love could never be questioned for you three are my soul! I have a mothers day EVERYDAY because of you! I'm blessed beyond a doubt.. I want you to know I'm here today tomorrow, and forever too! Just wanted you three to know how much I really love you!


I love these three and to tell you the truth I have a mother's day everyday!! Every smile, hug every prayer.... every I love you..... Life without them would be unbearable! I wish each and everyone a very Happy Mother's Day I love ya'll and Be Blessed sweet friend's!

My three babies!:)

Great blessing's on my Birthday!

   
                                      I'm turning 26 year's old tomorrow!
At first I felt overwhelmed and (OLD).... I thought I would feel wise and like I'm getting a new start! For some reason up until last night I was NOT looking forward to growing  older this year!


This morning at two in the morning on the way to Memphis to drop off my hubby for work..... I had so much me time to think.. Everything that has happen to me and for me, all my trails and all my blessings!

My husband and I moved back to Savannah and bought our very on home, We faced a trail in life that just built our faith up so strong! Our family has grown closer in this past year! I can list a million thing's that has happen good and bad! But for me all that is going through my head is why don't I have my hubby on my birthday why are the kid's and I always alone?

  Question's second guessing everything in life! I want to move pass these negative thoughts in my mind and move past them fast! This morning on the way home I turned on 90.5 our local K-love station I needed and wanted to be inspired encouraged what better way then to worship?

My mind went blank all bad thoughts gone my feeling loved and not alone I started to list good thing's out loud about my past year ONLY GOOD!
My two girl's woke at this point,still talking to myself haha the girl's were talking and laughing among there self.....

 My four year old loves K-love she starts to sing out loud
"where you go I'll go"  where you stay I'll stay" when you move I'll move"
Then my oldest daughter starts to sing, tear's flooded my eye's, tears of happiness of joy! How could I second guess a new season in life?

 Why would I have my eye's set on bad and the past when GOD has a open road for my family and I..... I have a sat out to engage in full love, and forgiveness this year I'm young and a wife a mother of three...

I've been blessed with two amazing unwanted children! I've been with them for seven year's nw and they are mine there couldnt be a life without them:)I prayed to God for my very own child after more then three doctors telling me I would never carry We had a sweet baby girl.....

I'm thankful so thankful I made a goal list for this year of being 26 happy, wise, encouraged new loved brave!!!

-Pray more... More one on one time with GOD!
-Take more free time... forget the cleaning...
-less T.V and FB and Blogging more family time!
-Be free in the judgment world we live in today!
-Taking a trip saving money's nice but for once I want to say yea to a trip enjoy the money we work so hard for!!!


  I'm Gina I'm a simple 26 year old women of GOD , mother and wife...
I have doubts and question's I get down in life sometimes stressed!
At the end of the day I know I'm blessed and loved... I'm never alone
I'm older and beautiful and blessed beyond doubt.....