Four Letter Word!

                                                          Four Letter Word:)

                   A word we use on every occasion.... A word some use not knowing
the meaning.... Not understanding the out come from using this Four
Letter Word to express them self!

     Dear Friend's I want to express what this word mean's to me and how
I use it....

LOVE is the wind on a hot summer day...
LOVE is a tender kiss....
LOVE is a hand print on the door in the morning...
LOVE is tear's falling during goodbyes...
LOVE is a small hand in yours....
LOVE is not measured....nor questioned...
LOVE is unexpected....NEVER need to ask for...
LOVE is true and kind....
LOVE is expressed through ten set's of hugs and kisses....before bed

In our family LOVE is not asked for.. There's no need to question
our LOVE for each other....

I find LOVE in ten load's of clothes that one stain you can't get out...
I don't get mad it reminds me of the fun we had making the stains...
LOVE being built!

  Sometimes I still need to be held, I need reassuring everything will work
out! LOVE comes through little hand's rub across my face and a big hug from small people come soon to follow..... I see LOVE where most don't!

  A hard day in and your children offer to clean the table after dinner!
Or take a bath without being told! That's LOVE in it's own way....

True and pure LOVE.... A kind of LOVE people would kill to fell....


LOVE day is coming soon and instead of just saying I LOVE you,
EXPRESS it no matter in what way or form....JUST EXPRESS it!

Go all out,have fun with it.... Make a day filled with note's and kisses..
Have a party with you family and friend's just to express you love for them!
Write a small note to put in your babies lunch box.... bake with your children..... Pass the cupcake's out to people you don't know just because!

  I want to take my expressing to a whole new level! I want more of the
little thing's to count in life!

LOVE in different form's fills my home..my HEART!!! I want to LOVE the
unloved..... The LORD don't chose whom to LOVE he LOVE"S us no matter
size,shape,or form..... Mad or Sad or Happy we should always add love!!!


Thanks for letting me take a moment to express how much the four letter word mean's to me!!! To my family.....LOVE and be LOVED!!!

Pushed away only to end with love!

My Husband and I:)2006




Sadly our story didn't start out so wonderful!
I will start by telling you I have spent the most part of my childhood
and adulthood pushing people away!
I was out to hurt them before they could hurt me.....


I've been put down and hurt, touched and abused
through-out my childhood-- I tried to find a happy place where
No ONE could hurt me and the truth is I didn't find that place!
I didn't feel safe..So I put this wall of fire up..


I remember setting out to hurt anyone who came close,
to close for comfort! I would do anything to hurt them
to remove them from my life so they couldn't do what the other's done!!
I was RUDE,NEGATIVE,OUT OF LINE!!

I remember losing friend's because I wouldn't let them to
close....No One took the time to ask me why?
No one sat down and tried to understand....

I tried to have friend's after so long they would get to close!
I would stop going to there house...Stop taking phone
calls! Distant my self to my room alone...
Untouchable!

See in my heart I wanted to reach out I wanted to talk
about thing's in my past, people who hurt me!
No one would take the time to listen...
There are so-many unknown thing's No one but my husband
knows about me!

I was 16 and wild! Not sexually but other way's
I stop attending school hung out with people whom
cheered me on to do horrible thing's- to fight
to drink....

I ran into a day where I was alone when I needed
someone to hold me to cry with me! Not to
see the negative and run but to hold tighter!


I'm here to tell you I still have day's when
I feel my family is in harm's way and I distant whom
ever might harm them from our life!

I saw a man! Someone to love!
Someone to love me!
(MY HUSBAND)

I had anger for so long,I hated myself and the one's
whom hurt me abused me- touched me!

Larry looked past my negative rude way's and seen
good! I pushed this man I should say I tried to
push him away.....

He stood by me! Held me through bad and good!
It's like he helped me release the evil all the
anger was gone when I was around him....

I smiled.... I remember laughing until it hurt!
He made me happy:)
At first I think I was there cause I felt different
around him, Not for love just a escape away from
all the bad!

November 12,2006 I was ask to move in...
ha! I thought it was a joke I thought he was nut's!
His two kid's called me mom they were so small!

I didn't know what would happen!
I didn't want to upset the kid's or
anyone around him!

They were always smiling and having fun!
I moved in that day that's when my love grew
for him! For the family!

There is no way I will lie and say I don't have
bad day's.... I don't push people away!
Because I do as everyone one has and will!

I have God to help me now!
A love so strong... A love
I never knew was available to me!

I'm happy to tell you Larry and I are coming up on
our 4th Wedding Anniversary:)
This January 24th,2013!

Almost
Seven full year's with  the man
whom loved me!

It's been hard to let this wall down!
I should tell you
I'm still in love with him...
With my family!
with my life....Sometimes I think I'm dreaming
but, the truth is I wake up to find a loving
Husband three wonderful children whom Love's me for me!!!

Our love as a family is strong....
We have a bond with each other I'm thankful to GOD
I have!

Ladies I still have my day's but I'm here to tell you
I wanted to share what I went through not in detail
because it still hurts to talk about sometimes!

If you have a wall up, if you can't trust..
If you have been hurt before!
I ask you to pray!
If not family, If not friend's
GOD will see you through!

He has a unconditional love! Amazing love!
To you whom have been hurt or abused in anyway,,,
My heart go's out to you!
My love and understanding go's out to you!
I pray for you and your faith!

Thank y'all for reading! Thanks for listening!
I'm so glad y'all stopped by and allowed me to
open up and show you my feeling's, my heart!!!

It's Christmas

Our tree:)

 
                       Christmas don't mean gift's to me-
When I think about Christmas even the whole month of December I think of giving not taking
but love and kindness I don't like to think of how much a gift is but the smile it brings....

I'm in wal-mart I hear this stressed over-worked mother on the phone in the next ail
talking with someone ---- this mother is almost in tear's talking about not being able to afford a barbie....

I walk down the way and she breaks she is head down and in a crazie mode talking about selling her wedding ring and selling her car!

I understand there are lot's of us that have to do this to get by....... But it broke my heart here I go
with like 100 in gift's in my chart and she didnt have 20 for a barbie!

Now I'm limited with the move and was putting a few item's back before checking out
but to know what she is going through and to walk away knowing I can help!!!

God-I said in my head this $20 could be used in so many places but this is where you lead me this is
where I went!!!!

I walked over to the lady and asked her to show me the barbie she wanted for her daughter...
she looked at me like I was insane hahaha! I said please allow me to help and pay for the
barbie you want! Please let me bless you how I've been blessed-

This lady gave me her number and she gave me like ten hug's I think at a point I couldnt breath...
It felt so good to help and to tell you the truth I went home with nothing that day!!!
I was worried that my kid's wouldnt get enough if I did this or I could use the $20 for gas or food...

But I put my faith in......I'm going to tell you I seen this lady a whole nine day's later......
I didn't even notice her! She said hey you are the one who helped me....
Now I looked at her like she was insane lol my kid's said momma keep walking hahaha!

 She handed me $50 and said to me I love your heart because  I had nothing and I didn't know if
my baby would open anything- you gave to me without knowing me without thinking about it...

I was telling her I wanted to and it was fine well her husband had got his settlment after two years of waiting
two years!!!!


God is good!!! Give and you will be given to!!!!! This is the best!

Sister's I don't like to put it out there if I help someone or give but I thought this was a wonderful story to share! If you are in a spot to help someone in need pray about it- Don't question the Lord ....Put your faith in 100% He will bless you 10 fold!!!!!!!


I hope each and everyone of you Beautiful friends are blessed and much more over this next few weeks!
I pray that you have a chance to give and help someone in need!

Thanks for reading!

Guest Post

The Sleepless Night and Ultimate Shut Me Up

©Dawn Paoletta

Photo Credit:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/kimonomania/3842267450/

　

　

"In your anger do not sin" Do not let the sun go down while you are still angry,　 and do not give the devil a foothold.　

Ephesians 4:26-27

It was a bad night. Everything I planned backfired. I was feeling discouraged, defeated and a tad angry to boot. When I walked into our home I wasn't planning on a confrontation with my dear husband. I'm convinced he wasn't planning on it either.

Sometimes when we least expect it we find ourselves in confrontations anyway.

                                                   So there we stood face to face.

Whatever it was he said in response to me is unimportant now. But at the moment it may as well been a knife.

I felt pierced, wounded.

I shot back angry words and retreated to the bedroom; he to his chair.

I decided to escape reality by turning in early.

After all it had been a bad day.

I wanted to drift off on a peaceful boat of sleep.

Of course that boat eluded me.

Instead I found myself on drowning in a sea of unforgiveness.

My mind reeled and raced - I was as mad as a cornered porcupine and as stubborn.

I'm pretty sure there's no sleep for angry, cornered porcupines either!

I tossed, I turned. I refused to let go.

It was a long night, no doubt.

Did I mention my stubbornness?

Finally after a sleepless night, my restless heart and mind began to realize the choice.

I had to forgive.

Don't think I did not have a long talk with my Lord, giving every honest thought, emotion and argument to His patient, listening ear.

I did.

In the end I had a choice.

I had to choose whether I would turn my back on Jesus and continue to walk in disobedience or turn back to Jesus in obedience and trust.

It took one sleepless night

as well as one long dialogue telling God (boldly and honestly) all of my rationalizations, justifications and excuses about why I was right and my husband wrong.

Then He gently reminded me of my Lord and asked me to consider all of these things I shared in light of His love, His sacrifice and His example.

The ultimate shut me up.

I chose to follow Jesus.

Forgiveness is not always easy.

It's a choice.

Jesus made a choice too

and it cost Him everything.

It secured forgiveness for all and

the freedom to choose.

Oh, that we would walk likewise.

　

Submit to one another　out of reverence for Christ.

Ephesians 5:21

Dawn Paoletta is a writer who is finally coming out of the closet and following her dream to share her life lessons and insights with anyone who will listen. Recently laid up with a muscular injury has temporarily curtailed her career in fitness allowing her the golden opportunity needed to reorder her priorities and shift her focus to blogging her greatest passions: Living out her faith as a modern day disciple of Jesus Christ and enjoying spending time with her husband, daughter and family pets. Having worked as a Personal Trainer & Group Fitness Instructor most of her adult life she is a natural coach and encourager who can't help sharing what she's learned along her journey. She likes to serve up spiritual lessons learned with authenticity, grace and truth.
You can find her blogging most days at: Beneath The Surface: Breath of Faith http://beneaththesurface-dawn.blogspot.com/ and Fitness For The Fainthearted http://enthusiasticallydawn.blogspot.com/

Thank You for Reading

Just A Little Love!

Start with love!

Wake your spouse with a kiss:)
Hug him or her when your mad!!
Be kind and gentle:)


When I took my vow's and said I do I thought love was easy,
word's said not something I've really felt much in my life time...


I'm blessed with a caring man who loved me for me...
( Bad and Good )
He holds me while I cry well use to!

I've signal handily broken our ah-mazing relationship  down NOT by cheating or stealing..

I've been cold- hearted and curl....I've thought about how I and our child together felt
not anyone else.... I was out for me and my younger child Josie only...

I feel everyone made a differences between my two step children and Josie!
So I guarded Josie
for myself... I held a-lot against my husband because it was easier!
His family wanted to come in between us and I let it happen!

I wanted a happy marriage...Wanted and honestly seen us lasting for ever!
I just don't know.... Yes it's not all me, but I do my fare share!!

Larry my husband has done and said alot to pro-long this growing problem with our marriage.
The trouble is God is not in our heart's!
We didn't grow with each other we grew without each other and without GOD!

Now after six year's, in hopes of saving our little family we have to work harder than
anyother marriage! Larry works on the boat so in the 28 day's he is on we talk like once a day
no more then that so for us it's learning and teaching each other during the 14 day's he is home!

I love this man I married! There is no doubt that I do! Yes we have great time's together....
The bad seems to come more often.....

I just realized that a marriage is a full time job! I put all my time to our three kid's and none toward  my husband and I....
I start my day as a momma and end it with momma...Never being a caring wife, never taking the time to rebuild anything with my husband!!!

To tell the truth most days I don't make it to bed! I'm up cleaning and getting ready for the next day!
I don't get bath's...I get shower's with three little ones banging on the bath room door...

I could come up with many excuses but the bottom line is if I let the devil take control over me and allow
him to continue to center himself in our marriage I wont have one! I cant take for my husband but I will myself!

I Vow to love and care for my husband more and EXPRESS it more daily!
I Vow to leave the house dirty for a hour just to hold his hand....
I Vow to kiss him every morning and night.....
I Vow to continue to honor him and be faithful!!



Most of all I Vow to put GOD in the center of this marriage! I will pray over my marriage daily!
I will listen to my husband just a little bit more before yelling his head off....

This might be hard work and I ( WE ) have a long road ahead of us! But I'm doing this all the way!
Our marriage will not end! It will grow with just a little love each day!



Sister's if you have a hard time with your marriage or understanding when to let a fight or disagreement go
pray about it!!! Listen to your heart....Make your judgement based on love!!

Just to add, My husband and I are not talking about a divorce but we need work!
Our heart's are not in  the best place, our judgement is way off and the devil is breaking his way in!!!

God will lead our marriage, he will give us the right path from today forward!!

Thanks -Gina






 

Josie 4th Birthday Party!!

Beautiful Girl:)

Josie's 4th Birthday Party!

Family,Friend's gather around on this spacial day!

Girl power!!

    Our youngest had her 4th Birthday party this past weekend! Party was filled with laughter,and love...
Family and Friend's gathered at the park for this spacial day.....

    I was a wreck!! I mean time fly's so fast! It was just yesterday (feels like) she was not even walking!!
November 24th is her real birthday but we had the party early do to Thanksgiving and her Daddy going back on the boat!!!

   My baby isn't such a baby anymore! I'm blessed beyond measure's!! This day was a big one for me more then her! I have learn to let her walk five step's ahead sometimes instead of holding my hand.....
I've gotten to I let her spend a night at Pawpaw's and Nana's house.....It only has happened three time's  but I DID IT!!!!

   She is amazing, loving and kind hearted!!! She is a leader- She trust with her heart and gives before takes:) She Wait's for her turn and talks to kid's that are in need of a friend! She has changed us and completed our family:) She is Our little Josie:)

  Most importantly  she loves Jesus!!! She talks about God daily ask to pray more than at dinner or just bed time!! She has her heart filled with the love of our savior!!! Amazing to see her take part in His word, I feel that God is and always will come First to her!!! (and US)!!!

   We are very proud  of our Little Josie:) Happy Birthday mommy and daddy love you unconditionally baby JOJO.........

Thanks for Stopping in to read about my Spacial day!!!!